I woke up later than usual today. It surprised me because I hadn’t sleep well or consistently since you left. After I got up, I spend a few minutes sitting on the patio feeling the tranquil Autumn air on my skin. A subtle breeze moved away the usual heavy humidity. The sky was a beautiful combination of puffed and wispy clouds, The light blue backdrop mirrored the coolness of the season. I realized that I hadn’t seen the moon for over a week. I searched for it every night; in hopes that you would gaze upon it at the moment I did.
From the beginning, it was that gaze into the lunar sky that connected us to each other during other times apart. I needed to feel you through that celestial body. It was all I could think of to do now that I cannot hear your velvet voice, breathing life into my shrinking soul.
I’ve been reminiscing relentlessly lately. Those moments, those sweet sacred moments we both cherish. Even the ones we had to endure. From not knowing where we were going, going through everything we did, and coming to where we are now.
How I long to trace my fingers along the magnificent sweep of your cheeks, and the sublime supple line of your neck. To say that I miss you is truly devoid of the depth of what I feel. No surgery, or medicine, or therapy could possibly replace what is missing without you.
In a moment of profound persistence, I realized that I don’t need this to be perfect, I need this to be the story we continue to write every day, together…...forever!
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